Halloween Tragedies ⋆˚꩜｡

​Hi Fairies !

    These past few weeks have been kind of eye opening if I do say so myself, I've taken multiple steps back thinking that maybe distance would help, but distance does nothing but get you used to the idea of them no longer being in your life. 

And well..

    I thought not being the first one to make plans, and or get in contact would switch it up a bit and finally show me that I do have friends in my area. 

Guys it doesn't work.

    And that's okay.

    I've been through multiple friendships to know that it's gonna take a while to find a friend that loves like you, considers like you, appreciates like you, listens like you, and takes care of you the way you take care of others. Granted I'm not sure when that day will be, but hey at least i've got family right? 

Wrong.

    My mom spends almost all her time choosing her boyfriends over her kids feeling respected and or comfortable. She spends her time trying to convince her kids that her boyfriend no longer wants to threaten to "punch" her kids in the face, and or threaten to "shoot" her kids in the face, and that's just supposed to make it all better? My mom keeps putting my little sister in the middle of everything because she keeps asking why I don't talk to her. Maybe it's because every time I get around you, the only thing that's talked about is how miserable you are with him, yet you're still with him? 

Someone please tell me how that works?

    There's no way she's in love with him, his imaginary monopoly money, maybe, but him ? There's literally no way when he's a redneck white guy with a mullet that says the N word, and holds his junk at women to feel dominance. Where's the man in that? Why would she want that? Why would she want to show her daughters that it's okay to be in a relationship like that? 

    Back to friendships

    All of that about my mother so far being said you can tell why I'd rather just create my own family. You can tell why friendships matter so much to me, because when you become friends with me you're stepping into a family I started on my own. That's why I care so much.

    That's also why it hurts so much to be disregarded like I didn't just spend the last couple of years making sure my friends feel loved, appreciated, and or seen and heard.

   That all being said

    I appreciate my boyfriend so much , he's seen me go through a few friendships and how they've all played out. And each time he hears about them he never fails to remind me that the love I carry is special and doesn't need to be taken for granted but used wisely. He continues to remind me about the purity inside my heart that still hasn't gone away even after how many times it's been trampled on. 

    For the fairies that have made it this far, if you don't have friends or a boyfriend, just know that I see you, I understand how lonely you feel in a room full of people. I understand how it feels to know that no one will return the kind of love you give and or have to give.

I hear you.

    For the fairies that do have friends and or a boyfriend and still feel lonely in a room full of people, I see and hear you also, to stand there in a room full of friends, smiling, having a good time, and knowing that you're the last choice friend is really tough to carry. Just know that you'll find someone who appreciates the love you give, even if it is only one person. 

In conclusion

    Put your love and energy into people that deserve it before it's too late. Me personally, I keep loving no matter what after all the times I've been pushed down. Which is insane because sometimes a butterfly fairy just wants to not care. I don't want to be as sensitive as I am, I can't stand how loving I am sometimes and I'm so tired of forgiving people because I genuinely never forget. 

    I love you all my magical little fairies !

p.s. THANK YOU FOR OVER 50 FOLLOWERS ! I LOVE YOU ALL LITERALLY SO MUCH <3

Sincerely,

Mya Marie